Hello everyone! I am so sorry about the lack of blog posts, for the past few weeks I have been locked out of my blog! I was so annoyed until I realized; mmmhhhh maybe ask God? And low and behold, I try to get on my blog and its up! I dont even have to sign in! YAY GOD!
I will try to catch up on everything that has been happening, but these last few weeks have been CRAZY! We had our lectures on the Holy Spirit two weeks ago, and wow was that incredible! I was not raised going to church and the first church I have ever called my home was very conservative compared to what I have been experiencing here. So learning about the gifts of the Spirit confirmed the yearning in my heart. I was missing the Holy Spirit! I was going after God in all the wrong places! For me, I couldnt encounter Him in the sunday sermons at church or in my random prayers I would throw up either out of desperation or obligation. My soul needed to pursue Him, but I had no idea how! My relationship with God has changed so drastically since I have been here and I have learned that I am not afraid! I told myself I needed to be afraid of what God could do because every thing I had known taught me to be afraid of the Holy Spirit. But I am not afraid anymore! He is more than the "Holy Spirit", as someone close to me says "He is my old friend". My friend to guide, comfort, and empower me!
As crazy as some of this might sound to people... oh well, its what happened! Our speaker anointed me in the Holy Spirit and prayed over me, but before that I asked God for the gift of tongues so that I may be able to worship Him when my words and my dance fails. And He gave it to me! He is such a loving God who just wants to lavish His gifts on us! After that, this man prophesied over us all and spoke so much truth it blew us away! God gave him words of knowledge for us and he spoke things over me I had never heard or thought about. Again God blew my expectations of what I would hear out of the water and awakened my heart to more dreams!
That same week, I received healing!!! For any of those who dont know, I have been suffering from chronic illnesses and pain since I was 8 years old. God promised me healing while I was here and I got it! And as another testament to His GREAT love; He gave me a choice. He told me He could miraculously heal me that moment and I would never struggle again and be blessed. OR the healing could be a process in which He could show me so much more and I would be very blessed. My God is so intriguing, I couldnt resist knowing how much more He had to show me! So as I have been trying to reaffirm in my fellow eager YWAMers, is that I am healed! I may have my bad days, but they are never as bad as they have been because He is there! Because I am healed and He is teaching and molding me and my brothers and sisters here. Since I fully surrendered my body to Him, He has been showing me ways of working out and dancing that are good for me! And actually ease the pain! YAY GOD!
God is so good! I am not even worthy of this suffering. I am not worthy of being used as an example and yet He uses me any way! As my body crumbles around me, He holds tight every piece and rebuilds me! Thank you God! Thank you Daddy!
I will post more later about the following weeks. But I hope that my story hasnt freaked you out, but instead given you hope! Because our God is great! He is endlessly amazing in every way, and our praises for Him are not because of what He can do for us, but for WHO HE IS! YAY GOD!
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